Alpha Nutrition Diet - Day 7

OK - I'm really starting to get sick of this diet.  I want real food!  But, being that I've made it through seven days, I suppose I should hold out for three more.  I know I'd be really mad at myself if I quit now.  Anyway, I want to be able to cross "food allergies" off my "Why Am I Sick?" list.

I think I over-did it, exercising though, as I was afraid of.  I've felt so run-down today.  I'm so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open.  I think, tomorrow, I'll take a break from exercise or I'll do a short very low-impact walk.  This is so frustrating!  I want to get back in shape so I can be healthy but when I try to exercise it sets me back even more.  It goes against common instinct and logic.

Alpha Nutrition Diet - Day 6

I have actually made it through six days of the Alpha Nutrition Program.  I may be feeling better but I'm not really sure.  Six days of ingesting only Alpha ENF, white rice, rice crackers, water and apple juice.  It's definitely getting harder to resist other foods.  Especially when I have to prepare meals for my daughter.  I went for a walk this morning and I felt a little stronger than usual.  I pushed myself to walk a little faster than normal and although I had to keep pushing the entire time, I was able to maintain a fairly decent (for me) pace.  I just hope I didn't push myself too hard and become useless for the next three days.  It has happened before.  In fact, the very first time I got really sick was the day after I had totally over-exerted myself.

Before I got sick, I used to walk about two miles a day up (and down) slopes with an average grade of 9.5%, which I think is pretty steep.  I would say I was in better shape than the average person but not an athlete by any means.  While I was pregnant with my daughter I wasn't able to exercise at all due to extreme fatigue - like, couldn't stand up long enough to take a shower, fatigue.  Because I wasn't exercising and I was eating the same or more than average, I gained weight.  I gained fifty pounds during my pregnancy!  Miraculously, when I left the hospital, thirty of those pounds had disappeared (ten of which was my beautiful daughter) but I still had twenty to go and I was determined to loose them. 

About two months after my daughter was born, I started to get my energy back.  It was very short-lived though.  I started exercising again, struggling up those same hills I used to walk with ease.  One day, determined to get out for a walk, I took my daughter in her stroller, since my husband was at work and walked up an even steeper hill than I usually do.  My muscles and lungs burned the whole time but I kept pushing that stroller higher and higher with thoughts of me in my pre-pregnancy jeans as a motivation.  I had clearly over-done it.  When I got to the top my face was bright red, I was covered with sweat and could hardly catch my breath.

The very next morning I woke up feeling like I had the flu.  My whole body ached, I felt like I had a fever (but didn't) and I could hardly get out of bed from weakness.  That was two years ago and those symptoms are still here and more have joined the repertoire along the way.  Although the severity of my illness has increased and decreased over the last two years, it has never gone away.  I have always thought, maybe that uphill climb while pushing the stroller had set something off, but I'll never really know. 

Crashing Down Off the Alpha Nutrition Wagon

Okay so it's now day 7 on the Alpha nutrition diet. My mental state has made it very difficult to maintain any type of discipline. Yesterday I didn't write down anything I ate or any of my symptoms although the severity of my symptoms don’t seem to have changed much. Today I also did not write down anything I ate or any of my symptoms and I ate an entire small pepperoni pizza which made me feel like I was going to puke for about an hour.  The pizza was a bit too well done but it still tasted good!

Last night I intentionally skipped my 20 mg Cymbalta dose for the first time. I felt okay until the late afternoon today when I started feeling lightheaded and nauseated. These symptoms got worse as the evening progressed so I decided to take a pill to minimize my discomfort. It seems to have helped with the nausea but I'm still a bit lightheaded. My plan is to take the 20 mg dose as soon as I begin to feel lightheaded.  Hopefully the duration between doses will get longer and longer until I can stop taking it all together.

I wrote this in one of my previous posts and I’ll write it again.  Cymbalta is evil!  I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone.  It’s a very harsh drug with very harsh and dangerous, even life threatening side effects. If I had gone through with some of the crazy, violent obsessions going through my mind the other night, my life would either be over or I would be in jail. I’m not exaggerating in the slightest.  Since the episode three nights ago, both my therapist and medical doctor have been calling regularly to check up on me and are very concerned about my mental state.   As I’ve mentioned several times before, I’ve taken many different drugs for depression and Fybromyalgia and this is one of the worst!  I can’t wait till I’m completely free of it.

Day 4 - 10/22/11 - Alpha Nutrition Diet for Aching and Fatigue

Still feeling like crap...

Symptoms
(0=mild to no discomfort 10=most severe discomfort/ pain)

3:00pm
Shortness of Breath - 4
Fatigue - 7
Headache - 2
Backache - 7
Eye Pain - 2
All-Over Body Pain - 6

Food Log
9:00am - 1 cup rice cereal, 1/2 cup rice milk,
10:00am - 1/3 cup ENF Formula
3:00pm - 6 peach slices, fruit ice pop
1:00pm - 1 cup rice, 1 cup broccoli & carrots, 1/3 cup ENF Formula
4:30pm - 2.5oz can salmon, large mango smoothie
6:00pm - 1cup rice, 1 cup broccoli & carrots, 1 cup rice cereal & 1/2 cup rice milk
9:00pm - 5 rice crackers

Medications taken at bedtime:
Cymbalta: 20mg, Welbutrin: 150mg, Lorazepam: 2mg

Day 3 - 10/21/11 - Alpha Nutirition Diet for Aching & Fatigue

Severe emotional breakdown at 9:30pm.  Felt extreme rage, anger and suicidal thoughts like I have never felt before.  Cymbalta is EVIL!  I have never experienced such withdrawal from SSRIs and I've taken most of the SSRI's out there.  I almost ended up in the ER.  I cannot even write some of the thoughts I was having down because they're too shameful.  I'm just so glad I was able to resist acting upon them.  I will never take a SNRI again.
Symptoms (0=mild to no discomfort 10=most severe discomfort/ pain)

10:30am
Shortness of Breath - 5
Fatigue - 7
Headache - 0
Backache - 7
Heart Murmurs - 3
Eye Pain - 2
All-Over Body Pain - 4
Sore Throat - 3

Food Log
9:00am - 1 cup rice cereal, 1/2 cup rice milk,
10:00am - 1/3 cup ENF Formula
12:00pm - 6 peach slices
1:00pm - 1 cup rice, 1 cup broccoli & carrots, 1/3 cup ENF Formula
5:00pm - 1.5 cup rice, 1.5 cup broccoli & carrots
7:00pm - 1 cup rice cereal, 1/2 cup rice milk
9:00pm - 5 rice crackers

Medications taken at bedtime:
Cymbalta: 20mg, Welbutrin: 150mg, Lorazepam: 2mg

Day 2 - 10/20/11 - Alpha Nutrition Diet for Aching and Fatigue

Still feeling about the same or worse.

Symptoms (0=mild to no discomfort 10=most severe discomfort/ pain)
10:00am
Shortness of Breath - 5
Fatigue - 7
Headache - 0
Backache - 5
Heart Murmurs - 5
Eye Pain - 2
All-Over Body Pain - 4
Sore Throat - 3

Food Log
8:30am -  1/2 cup rice cereal, 1/2 cup rice milk, 1/3 cup ENF formula
9:30am - 4 peach slices
11:00am - 1 cup broccoli & carrots, 1 cup rice
4:00pm - 1 cup rice, 1 cup broccoli & carrots
6:00pm - 1 cup rice, 1 cup broccoli & carrots
8:00pm - 1 cup rice cereal, 1 cup rice milk
9:00pm - 8 peach slices

Medications taken at bedtime:
Cymbalta: 20mg, Welbutrin: 150mg, Lorazepam: 2mg

Day 1 - 10/19/11 - Alpha Nutrition Diet for Aching and Fatigue

Slept until around 10am.  Woke up feeling bad:

Symptoms (0=mild to no discomfort 10=most severe discomfort/ pain)
                        12:00pm |  5:00pm
Shortness of Breath - 4  |  4
Fatigue - 6  |  6
Headache - 2  |  0
Backache - 6  |  3
Heart Murmurs - 5  |5
Eye Pain - 3  |  3
All-Over Body Pain - 4  |  4
Joint Pain - 5  |  4

Food Log
11:30am  -  6 peach slices, 3/4 cup white rice
12:30pm  -  1 cup cooked broccoli & carrots, 1tbsp olive oil, 1tsp salt
1:00pm  -  1 baked sweet potato
3:00pm  -  1 cup rice cereal, 1/2 cup rice milk
5:00pm  -  6 peach slices, 1/3 cup ENF formula
6:00pm  -  1 cup rice, 1 cup broccoli & carrots
7:30pm  -  1 cup rice cereal, 1 cup rice milk
9:00pm  -  1 cup rice

Medications taken at bedtime:
Cymbalta: 20mg, Welbutrin: 150mg, Lorazepam: 2mg

Coming Down Off Cymbalta

I don't know if I'm feeling the way I am because I lowered my Cymbalta dosage or if it's just one of those "fibro-lows".  Last night I sat on the floor in my scalding hot shower and cried, my body hurt so much.  I'm really feeling terrible.  Everything is worse from joint pain and all-over body pain to headaches, fatigue and weird symptoms like eye pain.  In my misery last night, I decided that I would start the "Alpha Diet" today because I had to find some relief and I didn't have any time to loose. 

According to the Alpha Nutrition book by D. Gisalason (although it does encourage flexibility), those who are suffering with severe disease should follow the "slow track" and begin with ten days of fasting while only taking liquid nutrients.  I didn't want to begin fasting until I was completely off my medications, so I've started eating only "Phase One" foods and liquid nutrients and plan to start fasting when my body is drug-free.

The list of Phase One foods is VERY limited.  I think there are thirty-three items on the list and that includes olive oil and at least four derivatives of rice (rice, rice cakes, rice (only) cereal, rice crackers, etc.).  Basically the Phase One diet includes certain vegetables, peaches, pears and rice.  I'm doing ok with it today but can see this getting really old really fast.  So far I'm still feeling like shit symptom-wize but I realize it may take at least ten days to feel any relief.  I'll be keeping my food and symptom journal here on my blog.  The journal entries will be titled "Day One", Day Two", etc.

If this doesn't work I don't know what I'll do.

Trying to Get Off Cymbalta?

The carb-free thing didn't work out but I'm not convinced that it isn't a diet issue that's causing my problems.  I've found some information on "delayed pattern food allergy" on the web and although I may be grasping at straws it sounds like an interesting theory to me.  I ordered a book by Dr. Gislason which explains the very involved process for discovering if you may in fact have a food allergy.  According to what I've read, it may take many months to come to any realization but if it works it's easily worth the time.

To prepare for fasting, which is the first step in the process, Dr. Gislason suggests that you rid your body of all prescription medications (as well as nicotine, caffeine & alcohol among other things).  I've been on SSRI's for about fifteen years to treat my Major Depression, so I'm a bit apprehensive about not taking them since I've experienced some severe depression in my life.  I've also had some experience with SSRI withdrawl so I know not to stop taking them abruptly.  I'm taking 60mg of Cymbalta once per day, so my plan was to take one dose every-other-day for a week or two then take one every third day, etc.  Since the medication comes in capsules, they can't be split in half.  I've used this method to wean myself off SSRIs before and have never had any problems.

Three days ago I intentionally skipped my Cymbalta dose before I went to bed, planning to take a dose the next night.  I woke up the next morning hardly able to move.  My muscles were so weak I could baredly lift my head from my pillow to drink some water.  As the day progressed I became more and more nauseated and I shivered with cold sweats.  It reminded me of my drinking days and the horrible hang-overs and alcohol poisoning I suffered all too frequently.  Unfortunately, my sickened state prevented me from realizing the source of my suffering until later in the evening.  I took a dose immediately but the damage was already done.  The next morning the withdrawl symptoms were gone.

I have NEVER experienced SSRI withdrawl symptoms that severe or sudden before.  In the past it's taken two or three days before I started to get "brain zaps" and feel dizzy or nauseated.  I admit that I was getting over a cold virus so that may have had some effect but I don't really think so.  My doctor prescribed 20mg tablets and I've been taking two of those once per day for the last two days and I haven't experienced any withdrawl as of yet.

If anyone out there is planning on quitting Cymbalta, be careful!  Also, don't let your prescription run out and think you'll just call your doctor tomorrow.  If you do, you may suffer severely for it and I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.