Peaches & Cream & Funky Carpet

My doctor has prescribed some new medication.  She took me off Zoloft and Flexoril and replaced them with Cymbalta and Nurontin.  Both of these new medications have some seriously inconvenient side effects .  I've been on them for about two weeks now and I'm still feeling nauseated, dizzy, super fatigued, weak and sweating like a pig.  In the past couple of days I've also been getting horrible headaches along with everything else.  I feel horrible.  I'm trying to run the hotel while taking care of my seventeen month old daughter at the same time and it's really sucking the life out of me.  This is our high season here and the phones are ringing off the hook.  The moment I pick up the phone my daughter screams on the top of her lungs which makes for a great impression to potential guests. 

It certainly doesn't help matters that I've found my husband is pretty much unable to deal with my illness.  Somehow, he feels sorry for himself and thinks he's getting the short end of the stick.  I have to keep reminding him that I'm the one who's sick and that it really sucks for me too (to put it very mildly).  Today I had a mini-meltdown (if there is such a thing).  My husband had apparently dumped water on the carpet (again) and neglected  to sop it up thoroughly.  Since it's been really warm the past few days, the spill, of which I was unaware of until today, had started to ferment making the carpet smell somewhat like cat piss.  This is not the first time this has happened and  I thought we had learned last time that when you spill something on the carpet and don't clean it up (especially in the summer) it quickly takes on a life of it's own...literally .  This smell does wonders for my nausea.  Well, this afternoon as I was discovering the source of the horrible smell, my daughter walked over to where I was sitting on the carpet and proceeded to slowly pour her peaches along with the syrup from her fruit cup on to the floor next to the existing funk.  I pretty much lost it at that point.  I just layed down on the floor and cried.  My daughter was very confused and a bit distressed I think because she kept trying to lift my head with her little hand.  My husband had been trying to take a nap because he had to get up at five am to take out a fishing charter.  I walked in the bedroom and told him I was sorry, but he was going to have to forgo the nap for today.

I'm Actually Still Here

I've been so busy recently that I haven't had time to write.  This is due in part to my recent remission from Fybromyalgia or what ever the hell it is that I have.  I started feeling so good that I was able to do things I hadn't been able to do in a long time.  I resumed my exercises and was able to really put myself into marketing the hotel for the beginning of our high season.  My efforts seem to be working so far.  I've been taking many bookings and I already have several weekends during the summer sold out.  Considering I'm paid only commission on what I sell, this is looking better and better.

I finally went to see a real Rhumatologist.  She ordered bloodwork and my ANA came back positive again.  So, she ordered more bloodwork to try to get some more details.  I got the results today.  My ANA was positive again, 1:80 with a speckled pattern.  Everything else she tested for came back negative.  She was supposed to call today but her nurse said she was seeing patients back-to-back all day.  Oh, I'm so used to this.  I would be shocked if a doctor actually called me back when they said they would.  Anyway, I've had some episodes of not feeling very well (like after my cousins from Sweden left after visiting), but I've been feeling pretty darn good. Still not back to the way I felt before I got pregnant more than two years ago, but I should be thankful for what I have now.  After all, I can walk and carry my daughter (short distances).

One of the symptoms I had been suffering with was shortness of breath.  I have to share something that has really helped me with this.  A couple of years ago I got a pair of Earth brand shoes.  I hadn't worn them in a while but dug them out of the closet a month or so ago and have been wearing them regularly.  If you're not familiar with Earth shoes I'll try to briefly explain them.  The company makes footwear using eco-friendly materials, ethically responsible methods and they're actually made in the USA.   Being the tree-hugger that I am, I was instantly attracted to the company and decided to try a pair.  The really unique thing about them is that they use a "negative heel" technology of their own invention which puts your heel 3.7 degrees LOWER than the front of your foot.  The advertisements claimed that the negative heel actually put your spine into proper alignment, easing back strain, poor posture and opening the chest up for less labored breathing.  All of these claims seemed too good to be true but happily they're not.  I'm just a hair under six feet tall so I've always had a bit of a slumping posture.  When your sholders are slumped forward it really does impact your lung capacity.  Once I started wearing these shoes again I noticed I wasn't nearly as short of breath.  The company also claims that since you're essentially walking "up hill" all the time, you burn more calories than walking with a shoe where the heel is higher like all other shoes are.  This part I can't speak to but I really recommend them for improved posture.